Christmas cookies are my crack

I have no control over Christmas cookies. I try not to eat them because once I start, I can't stop. They are totally addictive.

In the beginning of December I went to my friend Michelle's cookie swap. I came home with a tin full of decadent Christmas cookies. My plan was to give them to my colleagues as holiday gifts. So I safely kept the tin closed like Pandora's box and didn't eat any of them. Then I discovered my DH ate all of them, well not all, but over half-- and the best tasting ones. I was so mad, I dramatically threw the remaining cookies into the garbage. Later that night I complained to my mom and she told me, "Jenn, honey, Christmas cookies are like crack. They are irresistible, go easy on him."

Then yesterday, I thought I was home free from any Christmas cookie binges...until I went to my friend Allison's house for dinner. She mentioned Christmas cookies for dessert. She said she baked and they had way too many. We had to eat them. She had three tins each with it's own mouth watering homemade cookie: chocolate chips, ginger spice and sugar cookies with yummy icing.

"I'm okay", I thought, "I can have one or two...if I don't eat them, then I'll just feel deprived, unfestive and just plain rude. Then I'll safely go back to my cookie-free home. "

The chocolate chip was divine. And the bite of my DH's ginger spice was delicious. I was in control, satisfied, satiated, safe from that too-much-cookie feeling.

Then when we were getting ready to leave and she begged me to take some home. "No, I can't..." But somehow I wound up with "just a small bag."

She convinced me I could handle it "Just allow yourself one in the morning, and one at night." I accepted with us both knowing A. That's ridiculous, what kind of healthy way to start the day is a Christmas Cookie? It's a recipe for growing a muffin top, and B. Having those delicious cookies in my house is pure torture, I'm more likely to eat all of them in one day-- just to get those delicacies out of my house and move on with my diet.

I had one cookie at lunch, and then after work knowing I couldn't control myself, I brought all but four to my friend, Katherine. She told me she suffers from the same Christmas Cookie addiction. I felt guilty but she's super fit and runs everyday so I they won't do her any damage.

Then I came home and immediately went for another Chocolate Chip. Mmmm. And then my addiction kicked in. My mouth watering...I wanted all of them. Then, I did the unthinkable... I threw them out. Allison, I'm sorry. They were uncontrollably delicious, please take this as a compliment.

Now on with my diet. Jillian Michaels, Shred 2, I'll be seeing you at 6:45 am tomorrow.